Sneak Preview Sunday
Things start to heat up with Nadine and the new bad boy in her life.
Jealousy:
He came to me slowly, laying two light hands on my shoulders. I turned to him feeling horrible. I hadn’t done anything wrong, but I still felt bad. Had my powers gotten away from me like it almost had when sparring with Unicorn, I could have hurt him. I could have hurt her. I didn’t want to hurt anyone. I just wanted to be normal. The only one who truly deserved my wrath was Lou. He was the only one I really wanted to hurt. He was the only one who really deserved it.
“Hey. It’s okay. I was being an ass. It would serve me right if you barbequed me,” he said trying to get me to smile.
I couldn’t resist his smile. It was infection. My lips pulled back in a slight smile. “I wouldn’t barbeque you. I wouldn’t want to explain to Antonio what I did and why.”
“Yeah. He probably wouldn’t have blamed you though. I mean, he might actually miss me. Maybe a little. Probably be more a relief than anything. He might actually thank you if you did,” AJ smirked.
He ran his hands down my arms trying to comfort me. He was a comfort. It was a comfort I had only knew one other place before. I didn’t want to think about that right then though. I wanted to be here in the moment with AJ. Something about him felt right. I craved that feeling more than I should. He made me feel like there was more in the world than pain and misery. He was a breath of fresh air that I didn’t realize I needed.
“Thanks, AJ. The others are wrong about you, you know. You are so much more than the bad boy the others believe you to be. You’re a great guy,” I told him.
He didn’t respond to my compliment. Instead, something in his playful eyes changed. They grew cold and unreadable. His fingers gripped my arms firmly. Before I could react, he was pulling me close to him. His lips overtook mine, devouring me. I was consumed by his kiss. I melted against him. His fingers dug into my hair deepening the kiss more. Something inside me broke. His passion for life, for me, made me want more than just a simple kiss from him. My hand ran across his ribs gripping him closer to me just as his hands began to explore me as well. His lips traced my jaw and I moaned feeling a fire ignite in my belly. His lips found mine again, capturing me once more. I didn’t want him to stop. I wanted more than a simple kiss. I wanted the freedom it promised.
It was more than a simple kiss though. It was a betrayal. I betrayed Carter, who was a million miles and a world away. It was that realization that broke the spell we were under. Placing both hands against his chest I pushed trying to distance myself from AJ. He was like a rock though, unmovable, as he held me against him. My body began to panic remembering other times I was in such a position of unwanted affections. I remembered Bart trying to kiss me and Lou’s unwanted touches. All those horrible unwanted memories flooded me, and I panicked. I pushed against AJ again, this time power came rushing from me. AJ was rocketed away from me landing several feet away.
He quickly regained himself sitting up with a chuckle. “Feisty, aren’t you?”
My hands covered my mouth in shock before saying, “Oh god.”
I turned on my heels and left the Dreamscape despite him calling for me to come back. I had let AJ kiss me and did nothing to stop him. I let him because I wanted him to do it more than I cared to admit. It was brief and didn’t last long but that was because the guilt had been overwhelming. AJ had been too overwhelming. He was all jokes and passion. He was dangerous and I could not let myself be around him again. He had made me forget who I was for a brief moment. I couldn’t let that happen again. There was so much going on that I could not forget who I was and what I needed to do. Most of all, I couldn’t betray Carter again. He was a world away, but still my boyfriend. Carter was the love of my life. I loved him with everything in me. Somehow though, AJ negated how I felt for Carter. I loved Carter. What confused me though was if Carter was the love of my life, why did I feel such attraction to AJ? Why didn’t I stop AJ’s kiss sooner? What was wrong with me?
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